July Classwork

Here is the synopsis of my journal entries for the past week or so -- Also, each of these entries finished with me writing the affirmation "I meditate daily" 9 or 13 times.

July 13th
I tired to meditate last night right before bed, but I was too tired and I fell asleep. I meditated this morning before work. I sat on the loveseat in the living room so I wouldn't get too comfortable and fall back to sleep. I'm able to black out physical sensations, but sounds were still disturbing me (passing cars) I should use one of my meditation CDs to help block those out. Also, I thought of using the scales to open my chakras do-re-mi-fa-soh-la-ti-doh!
I think I will try that tomorrow morning. Other thoughts that drifted in and were pushed back out - becoming a massage therapist/healer/professional witch. I think my mom has reservations about me going to massage school. She wants Jeff (my fiance) to get his masters and support me I think.



July 21st
I went to the park in Coudersport today to meditate on my lunch break. Last night I meditated for about 5 minutes before I fell asleep. Today I meditated for about 7 minutes. I grounded, opened my chakras and cast a small personal circle around me, since I was out in the open. I began to picture the moon and draw its energy to me, and I saw a vision of the Goddess. She had a silver headband with a crescent moon on it, and her hair was long and straight and dark. She kissed my brow and said, "I am with you always my daughter." It echoed in my head. I did enjoy meditating in the park, I could smell the pine trees and the damp earth. Before I started meditating I found a rock that looked like a hatched open egg. I used to visualization of eggs hatching to open my chakras today.

July 22nd
I meditated this morning from 10:47-10:58. I have not eaten yet today. I don't know if that helped or was a distraction, with my stomach growling and all. I am really liking this chakras hatching from eggs visualization. I felt very disconnected and separate from my body, I couldn't feel my hands resting on my legs. I started off distracted by thoughts of what my fiance was doing at work. I pictured him sitting with a patient, holding a clipboard (he works in mental health) I pushed that image away and began to visualize a bright full moon. I pictured it as it looks when I'm driving at night, a glowing white disc in a navy blue sky over a black-green hill. I felt the moonlight entering me and filling me, starting in the center and expanding through my head and feet. I hadn't chosen a magical battery at that point, so I grounded the energy into my altar and tools.

July 23rd
3 days in a row! I am on a roll! This morning I meditated from 8:33 -8:45. I opened my chakras and pictured the moon over the hills again. I absorbed the moonlight til my hands and feet felt very warm. Then I grounded that energy into my pentacle necklace. My right (projective) hand holding the necklace felt very hot. Then I closed my chakras, grounded the excess energy and opened my eyes. I think I'm getting better at blocking out extraneous thoughts. I push them away, and focus on breathing in and out.

July 24th
I meditated a full 15 minutes! I did the moon exercise again. Today the moonlight felt like cool running water and tickly, like sticking your arm through a cobweb. I transfered it to my pentacle necklace and felt the cold drawing from my arms and legs, through my hands intol the pendant. The coolness in me was the glowing white tickly moonlight. I could see the pentacle glowing a clear bright white as I charged it. It pulsed in my hand.
thoughts while meditating - I briefly discussed herbs with Lacy today and how I'm not very knowledgeable about them. I had the thought, I should learn about the herbs in the porch box (which Jeff's mom gave us) from the herbs themselves. I should just talk to them like I do my Fairy Oracle cards.

July 25th
I meditated for 15 minutes again. The affirmations are working I believe. I was a little distracted tonight because today I read Lesson 3 and I was trying not to work ahead. That lesson mentioned people breaking fragile pieces of jewelry like stone rings by charging them with too much energy. It made me wonder if I could do that. I opened my chakras and focused on the moon. I think my visualization is improving. Tonight I could picture the moonbeams shining on me clearly. Tonight its energy felt cool and a bit frosty. Like a moonlit winter night when the moon turns the snow silver and the world is so beautiful. I could feel a white glow on my aura, the cold moon energy spread into my face and down my legs. It made the muscles in my arms twitch and jump. When I sent the energy into the pentacle, it seemed to twitch too. When I sat it down and touched it, it felt sting-y to my fingers.
Impatient thoughts came into my head tonight like, "is 15 minutes up yet?" I think impatience is something I need to work on when I start Lesson 3.

July 27th AM
I meditated for 10 minutes this morning. I was too tired after work yesterday. [Mondays are 13 hour days for me once you include my commute]
When I started drawing in the moon energy I felt tightness in my chest. The feeling grew very slowly, like ice spreading out to cover my chest and shoulders. I tried to pull the energy in faster, and then I had a thought, "You can't take from the Goddess, you need to open up more to allow more energy to come in" So I focused on opening up and asborbing the energy. It did move faster. The muscles in my arms twitched and jumped. The energy flowed easily in the pentacle making it warm and pulsing. I could feel the tension leaving my body. It occurred to me that I wasn't sure when I stoped sending the energy I raised and starting sending personal power into it.
I also wonder if it's okay to wear the necklace out in public now that I'm using it as my magical battery. I don't know if that disperses the energy.

July 27th PM
I meditated for 10 minutes between 9:45 and 9:55. I had a cramp in my left side again when I laid down. I think it may be from having just eaten. I felt less physical sensation when drawing the energy for the second time today. I think this demonstrates why it's important to be well rested for ritual. I pushed away persistent distractions by thinking, "I'll write it down when I finish" I was distracted by thoughts of moving to Smethport and shortening my commute (I currently drive 45 miles one way to work) I was also distracted thinking about my Jeff.


Well, that's everything related to my meditation. Let me know if you think I'm ready for Lesson 3.

Merry Part and Blessed Be,
Aurora Rose
aka Suzanne